Lost With Only Me

We broke up my heart fell thru...
im heartless and id say its because of you...
yea im scared but its only visible inside me...
i know if u saw me ud feel the same way, so u try to hide from me...
we had good n bad times but those are behind us..
we both moved on but sum things remind us...
you prob dont care and i to an extent dont either...
but if i said i didnt want to one day see u, u could call me a liar...
time does heal and that happend along time ago...
but i cant help to think if time will show...
maybe oneday we'll bump into eachother and share memories..
share a kiss and maybe after an email will get sent to me...
ahh the future holds so much uncertainty...
im happy for that as my past has done nothing but hurt me...

god please show me where i should be..
lost in a world without me...
a family got torn apart & now they survive without me...
how am i suppose to feel when the pain is to real...
knife to the heart with no knife to my heart...
my soul is dark but nobody can tell ...
everybody believes the shit that i sell...
and im happy for it because nobody could ever understand...
im in a place where only tears of sadness will land...
a place you could only see if youve been here before...
so people continue to look at me for what they use me for...
as if we still are wat we used to be..
the me today, ur not used to me, trust me...
im in a place alone with only my shoulder to cry on...
i gotta be stronger than this cuz im the only one i can rely on..