As a New Chapter Begins...

Closer we come to an end...

closer we learn a new beginning...

a place that begins a new chapter...

a place that ends a time but we save as memories...

a love lost is just a space for love to be gained....

a change in mind is just how we say we dont mind the change...

we adapt to a heart broken untill we fix it...

now we are a strong heart that can only be broken if it wasnt built well...

the time when trust is tested and you wonder will it stand the test of time...

when u dig deep and true feelings arise .. was it all a lie?

we lose we gain we lose we gain again...

when will we build on what weve gained so the loss cant see the day...

true happiness doesnt come without true pain...

because of this we can continue and dont sit and ask why?

when love hurts it just means you loved love alot more than you thought...

its just you reacting to your own reaction...

so i take this in mind and say to you....

my heart and ours together can not be broken unless we want it to..

any struggle we share, we share together...

our hearts strength will be shown when the rain is gone and the sun shines again...

a matter of fact every second that goes by less drops seem to fall...

either way if a storm starts up or the sun shines forever im not worried at all...

because in a room of short stories, every chapter we share it stands tall...

DEAR STRANGER

I miss you and i really never met you,
my idol but i never really knew you,
u left me when i was small...
i was to young to remember at all...
but some how i feel its affected my life too...
ive always felt alone nobody to look up to...
it hurts not knowing who i came from..
just pictures from when u were young show where my looks came from...
now your up above looking down...
and when im down im just looking around...
feeling lost with nobody to turn to..
why god had to take you?...
a tear falls, to see you i couldnt wait too..
to have known you, i guess it wasnt fate...
you died on the job, u couldnt be late?..
alot of times i look for different answers...
y couldnt he just get cancer...
maybe i wouldve known him longer, maybe...
maybe i couldve heard his thoughts, he couldve seen my baby...
see wat ive become, a grown man not following the streets..
a man, a great father, being all i can be..
i just want to know hes proud...
if you can hear me up there scream it back loud...
i promise ill get the words you can even send me a letter..
i promise ill get it, i promise ill get better...
make you happy ur son is man...
nobody to fall back on, on my own two legs i stand...
i promised you dad when i was younger id be a great father...
id never leave her or let anyone prevent me beig there for her....
But back to you, your really just a stranger to me..
so its crazy how much the thought affects me...
cuz im blessed to be me and have the family i have..
but theres something inside that hurts cuz i never met my dad...

Who Am I

my soul is in pain i didnt want to share but lets...
my mind sends my heart death threats...
its like a scene straight out of the worst war story...
but this one is all heart with no glory...
forced into a struggle with a never ending life cycle...
i stare at the mirror and tears fall, theres nobody like you..
nobody likes you, no love, nobody to write too..
but i fight too, and despite you i might lose..
see im far from right my life never been perfect..
a loud darkness within me, you just never heard it...
a feeling like "nobody can understand my words"
nobody can understand so all u get is random blurps from a twitter bird...
yea try to find the real me and youll die trying...
i cant find me and im stuck somewhere inside him...
him being, what you see right in front of you...
smile on face, fitted on tilt, im funny too..
sure im a cool dude but theres more to me..
i mean its somewhere in here if i let u even close to me...
my mind body and soul goes out of control...
been struggling to get by since day 1 ... and i will never fold..
so ya could keep coming after me...
pressure and my demons keep laughing at me...
but im glad to see with all the casualties i still havent become a tragedy...
i will make it! i will never fail i refuse to..
so yall can hate me from a far... screw you!
i got a screw lose but im on solid ground with great weather...
depression wont hold me back im tough like leather...
ya pleather, a merino sweater , cotton, fuck it a "i love you" letter..
im far gone yall cant catch up to me...
no matter what your appearance is ya cant fuck with me...
gotta long way to go in this world, believe me i know....
but ya cant even dream of the shit that i already show...
fuck all my ex's, wait nah i love ya all, thats my reply...
but am i that ugly? cuz all ya new dudes is fat guys!...
i laugh, but anyway back to the story...
all heart no glory...
theres nothing in this world for me...
all the bullshit sum of yall talk is starting to bore me... ignore me!
i dont care im just venting while im in my computer chair..
give me long stares and good hair...
but know that meeting anybody like me is o so rare... its not fair.