Who Am I

my soul is in pain i didnt want to share but lets...
my mind sends my heart death threats...
its like a scene straight out of the worst war story...
but this one is all heart with no glory...
forced into a struggle with a never ending life cycle...
i stare at the mirror and tears fall, theres nobody like you..
nobody likes you, no love, nobody to write too..
but i fight too, and despite you i might lose..
see im far from right my life never been perfect..
a loud darkness within me, you just never heard it...
a feeling like "nobody can understand my words"
nobody can understand so all u get is random blurps from a twitter bird...
yea try to find the real me and youll die trying...
i cant find me and im stuck somewhere inside him...
him being, what you see right in front of you...
smile on face, fitted on tilt, im funny too..
sure im a cool dude but theres more to me..
i mean its somewhere in here if i let u even close to me...
my mind body and soul goes out of control...
been struggling to get by since day 1 ... and i will never fold..
so ya could keep coming after me...
pressure and my demons keep laughing at me...
but im glad to see with all the casualties i still havent become a tragedy...
i will make it! i will never fail i refuse to..
so yall can hate me from a far... screw you!
i got a screw lose but im on solid ground with great weather...
depression wont hold me back im tough like leather...
ya pleather, a merino sweater , cotton, fuck it a "i love you" letter..
im far gone yall cant catch up to me...
no matter what your appearance is ya cant fuck with me...
gotta long way to go in this world, believe me i know....
but ya cant even dream of the shit that i already show...
fuck all my ex's, wait nah i love ya all, thats my reply...
but am i that ugly? cuz all ya new dudes is fat guys!...
i laugh, but anyway back to the story...
all heart no glory...
theres nothing in this world for me...
all the bullshit sum of yall talk is starting to bore me... ignore me!
i dont care im just venting while im in my computer chair..
give me long stares and good hair...
but know that meeting anybody like me is o so rare... its not fair.